SEX...the curse of humankind

If you follow this path, be prepared on your way to re-awakening passion to pass through a land called Obsession. Be aware that most people never make it out the other side. Sex, which will feel like the answer to your loneliness and deadness, will turn out to reinforce those feelings. You will come to feel more alive when thinking about or engaged in sex than at almost any other time. When you do experience sex, you may come closer to another human being than you can ever thought you would. Sensing the safety to do so, you will begin to care deeply, and to feel all the joy and pleasure and every other feeling that has been trapped inside of you for so long, including all the fear you have never been safe enough to feel. And so the closer you get, the more scared you will feel. And you will find ways to withdraw, and you will begin to believe that it is not safe and that you are just as alone as you have always felt. You will come to blame your partner or yourself for the inadequacy and for the inability of sex to make you back into the great, vulnerable, courageous, and free being you were born to be. But because some taste, some glimpse is available through sex, you will be driven to seek it out as the solution to your life-sized dilemma. If you escape the self-condemnation of sexual repression, you will desperately search for new kinds of sexual contact, real or imagined, to make you feel whole or to make you feel anything at all. But no matter how much sex you encounter, it will not be enough to fill your enormous need to love and be close and express your passion and delight in your senses and feel life force coursing through your muscles and your skin. All sexual desire will become tainted with your desperation. Passion and desperation will begin to seem one and the same.
You will be Obsessed.

Fucking OOMF

I've been chatting with this guy on Twitter a lot recently. I tend to be constantly horny so my online chats with him are almost always to do with sex. He is 28 and a Civil Engineer here in Durban, I never usually go for Twitter guys but this one is very hot, filthy and persistent and he turned me on to be honest. Whenever I was online there he was in my DM, He was desperate to come to my flat and kept on telling me he 'loved me' and how he wanted to rip my clothes off, spank my bare ass and "lick my pussy for hours". I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little bit curious to have a total stranger lick my pussy. Just for fun I eventually agreed for him to visit my flat. This was all a bit risky as we've never met before and my boyfriend has a spare key to the flat but I really didn't care, I was just gagging for some wild fun, with someone different.

He was due to arrive at 6:30 pm, So I had time for a long hot bath and a glass of wine, I expected a text any minute so I put on my favorite dress and high heels, he sent a DM saying “I’m outside”, I took my time straightening myself up in front of a mirror, then I went downstairs, he’s quite shorter then I imagined, but his face is cute with full scrumptious lips which I like. So I opened the gate, turned around and led him to my flat, before I could even speak, he stepped forward and kissed me in my hallway, slamming my door shut, I tightly held onto him in disbelief, as soon as I found my breathe, all I managed to say was "Uuhmm, wow...you don’t waste time do you?!!" he smiled shyly and apologized, as he handed me a bottle of Skyy vodka and Cranberry juice he brought for me.

 I went to the kitchen to fix us some drinks, I returned and he was just staring at me, I stared back looking down at the obvious bulge in his chino trousers, I led him to the couch, motioned him to sit and I sat down next to him, things were a bit awkward for a couple of minutes because I didn't know how to start a conversation, all I wanted was to fuck. It’s like he was reading my mind because he leaned over to me and started kissing my face all over and squeezing my breasts with one hand, his kisses were quick and fast, like he was under pressure, he took my glass from my hands and placed it on the coffee table, he then resumed kissing me I felt both of his hands now fondling my breasts. At this point I was becoming moist and was now so aroused I was going to let this happen, I knew it was so wrong but it turned me on to have a stranger 'in control' of the situation.

He stood up and pulled me with him, he began slowly peeling off my dress and my bra, he pulled his head back slightly to watch as the dress drop to the floor, he just stopped and stared for a moment, his eyes focusing on my pussy, by now I was soaking wet, “let’s go to bed”  I whispered while kicking off my dress with my left high heel, I led the way, I could feel his eyes following me  around then he followed me to the bedroom, he stripped off all his clothes, I laid on my back my body language screaming “Lick me now!!" he leaned over both his hands started squeezing my breasts, his mouth all over my body,  I then felt his tongue moving up and down on my wet clit, It felt so amazing, I rolled my hips and pressed my pussy even towards his face, he responded by circling my pussy with his tongue, I was in heaven it felt so good, I was at this point so close to orgasm and he needed to know it, "that's it now right fucking there! Faster! Oh god! I'm cumming for you now!!!!" I screamed as I came, my juices flowed. My legs were like jelly.

"oh my god" I muttered as I felt both his hands part my ass cheeks and something warm entered deep inside my asshole, it was his tongue and it felt amazing, I’ve never had a guy lick my asshole before, it was a thrill, I let out a loud moan as his hot tongue circled my asshole and 2 of his fingers entered my wet pussy at the same time, my hips moved in rhythm with his fingers. I felt the sensation building when he picked up the pace and fingered me faster, "oh god, oh yes, YES I'm cumming again!!!!" I screamed during an absolutely amazing orgasm, my legs were shaking and my body tingled all over. I glanced down at him and could see his face was still buried deep between my thighs.

I turned my head round and could see him stand up, revealing his fully erect cock. Just as I was about to get up and on my knees to suck his cock he quickly and firmly grabbed hold of my hips, rip open a condom he took out of his pants, he quickly rolled it down his fully erect penis and guided it towards my pussy, We both gave out a moan of sheer pleasure when he forcefully sunk his cock deep inside my soaking wet pussy, “the look of love” by Kenny G continued playing on repeat in the background as he tightly gripped hold of my hips and began pumping away, "Oh god yes! Yes fuck me harder!!" I demanded of him, He responded as well, He was stronger than he looked and began thrusting into me much harder than before, it felt so good, he moved both his hands from my hips and began squeezing my soft breasts, "Oh yes!! Oh god! I love it!!" He murmured as he continued pounding me, He was so hard and so deep that his balls were slapping against me, His thrusts were driving me to an even greater and longer orgasm, I moaned and moaned uncontrollably. "I’m cumming! I'm cumming! I'm cumming of fuck yeah I’m cumming” I remember my mouth screaming without any instruction from me, he continued pumping away until he also let out a loud pleasure filled cry "OH FFFUUUUCK!!!", I could feel my body tingle all over as he shot a load of  his cum in the condom hot against my pussy.

He then slowly pulled out his cock, condom full with his creamy cum, I turned around and giggled as he shuffled over to go to the bathroom to clean up, he came back and He lay back on my bed with a big smile on his face. He was staring at my naked body, "You are beautiful Mbali" he said whilst kissing me on the cheek.

I responded by squeezing both of my breasts together and smiling at him. We talked about stuff, after like 20 minutes I started playing with his now fully erect penis. I shifted my body to the edge of the bed and pulled him to sit on the edge, At that point I slowly stood up and  I got down on my knees just in front of him, "you know what Mr" I said as I looked into his eyes, "God you are so cute!!" I said as I grabbed his face and pulled him towards mine, passionately kissing his lips, his face was still wet and I could taste my cum on him, this only served to turn me on even more, I then grabbed his erect penis, I was hungry for it and desperate to have it down my throat. I quickly moved my head down and took all inches of his cock down my throat; I closed my mouth around his cock and let out a moan at the taste of it. I began sucking, hard, relishing the salty pre cum, I sucked it as far down my throat as I could and got faster and faster, I could hear him moan with pleasure the faster I went, up and down, faster still, "Oh yes it feels amazing! Faster YES!” he continued moaning "Yes, oh yes I love you!! Oh! Oh! Oh! Oooooooh! Mbali I'm going to cum now Mbali!!!!" Still on my knees I removed his cock from my mouth I shook his cock in jerk off motion then I felt a wave after wave of his hot cum squirt on my face, I continued jerking him off until the very last drop of his cum, "Ooooh my god, that was so fucking good” he said

“That was so good" he muttered to himself as he run his fingers through my dreadlocks, I just remained in the same position, my jaw fucking exhausted, he was staring at my face which was covered in his cum, it was almost as if he was proud of the amount of cum he'd sprayed all over my face, it was dripping off me. He lay back on the bed smiling.

After several more hours lying in bed beside him, I told him to leave. Still naked, I sat back on the bed; my legs were wide open, watching him quickly putting all his clothes back on. He looked up and stared between my legs, I got the impression he was trying to take it all in, and maybe he didn't expect to see me again.

He needn't have worried, 'we are going to be fuck buddies from now on' I thought to myself, he practically begged me for my phone number or BBM pin at least, I gave it to him he kissed me one last time and he left.

He bought me flowers :-)

Sex after BDSM

Today is Tuesday, we haven’t seen each other since our dirty little act on Sunday, but we've been constantly on the phone, texting and calling each other for the past 24hrs. He kept telling me how happy I have made him feel. It’s a very fulfilling feeling hearing someone say those words. I think that’s what love is about.

“How are you doing today honey?” I can hear him calling from the kitchen as he puts down dinner he bought on the way over, as I place my laptop on the coffee table, I turn around and I’m rewarded with a sight of him holding a bunch flowers. He took my breath away. “Hello my love” he said, His voice spurs me to affection, I stood up and hurry over to him, he embraces me and give me a soft kiss “how was your day?” he asked, “not too bad baby”, he hands me the flowers, “I saw them and I thought of you and the way you make me happy”. I gasped; this is the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. I know he can be romantic if he wants; it just takes a right kind of encouragement for him to show it.

I drop the flowers on the dining table and quickly kiss him while unbuttoning his shirt with my left hand, I unbuckle and unzip his pants with my right hand, and He takes off my t-shirt and skirt  and throws onto the floor and kicks it away. I command him to sit on the couch; I stand in front of him, I drop to his lap and start kissing him forcefully as my hands roam his back, then I grab his firm dick so hard that he gasps.  I pull his mouth to me while grinding my hips against him, he starts running his hands though my hair as he fucks my mouth with his tongue, tasting me, biting me, there’s nothing I want more now than feeling his dick inside my hot wet pussy. I let go of his dick and I spread my legs wider and he quickly shove his dick in, I screamed I spread my legs further so I can feel his cock filling up my pussy. It was hot, we just let it sit inside while kissing and nibbling each other, no one moves as yet, and the stillness of a hot hard cock inside me makes me cum immediately. The release of my hot fluids drives him mad, he quickly grabs my ankles, position me in squat, he grabs my butt cheeks and start moving me in and out of his dick, he rolls his hips to meet me midair, its fuckin amazing, I feel another wave coming, I fuck him faster, every nerve in my body scream with pleasure I lose control and cum on him. He groans

He presses his body harder against me, almost crushing me, sliding his cock in and out of my hot wet pussy, he licks my ear, gripping my earlobe with his lips and tugging on it, he runs the tip of his tongue lightly and wetly along the edge, I moan with pleasure. Suddenly he pulls his dick out, shift his body over, I remain in same squatting position, he shoves his dick from behind immediately hitting the g-spot, I lose control and scream loudly “oh baby!” I hold on tightly to the couch and cum. He runs his hot tongue along my spine, a shiver seizes my entire body when I feel his warmth, I groan loudly, arching my back and squirming about as he grabs my hips and hold them still. Jesus Christ I feel another one coming. He senses how my body tenses and start fucking faster, throwing my ass up and catching me with his dick, I feel like I’m going to squirt “fuck yes, its fuckin good baby!, don’t  fuckin stop ” I scream. This time my whole body tenses in anticipation of a blessed orgasm, I felt his dick getting stiffer and stiffer inside my pussy, I knew he’s about to cum, I yell “cum baby”, he says “I’m cumming baby”, I yell “cum dammit.....oooooooo yesssss fuck me, cum baby”, I was well on my own climax when he screamed “yes baby.....!” he held me tight and exploded into my pussy, I felt a huge super hot cum filling my pussy. I loved it, it felt so incredible. 

We collapsed on the couch and slided off to the cold wooden floors, we just lay there on our sweaty slimy mess for about an hour, panting, kissing and stroking each other

PROJECT BDSM - first timer (part 3)

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He doesn’t have a say from now on. Slowly I started stripping my clothes off one by one until I was completely naked, he watched in anticipation, he was about to burst out in flames with desire. ...........

I told him we are going to take turns in playing the game, but first I’m going to take charge so he can learn the ropes, he agreed. I told him Im gonna have to tie him up; he hesitated for a moment then agreed. I was over the moon with excitement; so far everything was going as planned.

He voluntarily sat himself on the chair, first I blindfolded him so I can be able to work precisely without his prying eyes, I then took out two cotton scarves, I tied his hands tightly together on his back, and then secured him by tying him against the chair with a thick elastic belt. I made sure to ask him if it wasn't too tight he said no. He was now tied securely, My inner whore started to crawl out of the closet to play; I was feeling hot as fuck, still naked, my pussy dripping wet and very hot. I left him there hard naked, blindfolded and tied to the chair

I slipped into my little outfit, tied my hair up and sprayed on some perfume and put on a red lipstick. I took out my leather belts, I put on some slow music and switched off the lights, the only beam of light in the room was coming from the bathroom at the far right corner of the house, He wasn't aware of what was going on around him.

 I poured four vodka shots; I had two and fed the rest to him. I took out the blindfold, his jaw dropped, his eyes obviously admiring what was in front of him, I was standing there with nothing on but a see-through lingerie, belts on my hand, he was rather amused. I saw his dick swell again and taking shape right before my eyes. He asked if I’m going to whip him with those, pointing to the belts on my hand with his head, I said “not if you are a good slave boy” he chuckled, I yelled “shut up slave boy!” hitting him with a soft leather belt on his shoulders, I must say, I really surprised myself with my tone and aggressiveness. I repeated “shut the fuck up, you will not speak unless spoken to slave boy, do you undestand?!”, he said okay. I yelled “say yes m’aam!” He just blank starred, he said yes m’aam.  He didn't move. he was fuckin terrified 

I started pacing around him like Halle Berry in Catwoman. I was now in character and enjoying every second of it. I took out another scarve from the bag of tricks and tied his ankles together, he said nothing. He watched my each and every move. I pulled another chair and sat in front of him, with my legs wide apart so he can have full view of my dripping wet pussy, I lit a cigarette and scanned his facial reaction carefully, he gasped but said nothing, I know he’s against smoking but I was daring him to say something, still he said nothing. I took few more puffs and blew the smoke in his face, he didn't say anything. Then I thought, let me push his buttons some more, I made him take a puff, surprisingly he obeyed.

I stood up, put the cigarette out. I started pacing around him again;

Faint light flickered around him as I paced around him, his cock was fully aroused.  I stood in front of him His face confronting with my pussy, I stuck my finger in my wet pussy and made him sniff, His lower lip trembled, I dipped my fingers in my pussy again and made him taste the juices, he swallowed the lump in his throat and I felt a sign of budding frustration in the depths of his abdomen.  He licked his lips.

I whispered in his ear "when I’m done with you I want you to fuck my pussy hard.” he said “yes m’aam”, I said “good boy, this could be all yours if you behave”, he said “yes m’aam”

I leaned down and kissed his lips; his tongue sought mine and they danced a slow tease of seduction. I pulled and twisted his nipple with my thumb and forefingers, I then moved my mouth further down to his belly and down to his fully aroused cock, I knelt down before him and examined his cock. “this is a big hard cock, and it’s all mine and mine alone” I hissed, "do you understand?" he said "yes m'aam", I started teasing his dick head with my tongue while dangling his balls with my thumbs. I knew what he needed, I began to suck, bite and tease the tip of his dick with my tongue,
His muscles tightened beneath my touch, the frustration got the better of him, he struggled to free himself, totally forgetting his role in this game. Quickly I stopped pulled out my belt and whipped him twice on the thighs, he growled in mixture of pain and desire. I could see how much his cock ached, ached to be smothered with my hot wet pussy. I asked him what he wants; He told me how he wanted to make me cum. I grinned and rose to my feet

He watched me as I walk around him. Knowing that he desires nothing more than to suck and drink the fluids boiling up in my pussy. His watchful gaze was both comforting and nerve-wracking. He took a deep breath and begged me to free him, “I’m not done yet” I told him

Again I sat on the chair opposite him, carefully opened my legs wide open and started fingering myself, I stuck my two fingers in and out of my pussy and rubbed the bean with the other hand, I gasped with pure pleasure, more so because he was watching, he starred in disbelief, gasping and cussing under his breath.  I looked up into his eyes and grinned. I moaned, while maintaining eye contact with him, watching his face while feeling the hot wetness of my pussy , he groaned, I moaned, he groaned, I moaned louder and louder ....until I came in my fingers. He cussed and shifted uncomfortably on his chair, dying to break free. I liked each and every moment of his torture. I leaned over and made him lick off my cum on my fingers, he obeyed.

I then rose up and sat on his hard dick, it just slided with ease into my pussy, he purred, I fucked him nice and slow, up and down, in and out his dick slide in my pussy, I came hott  on him , he went crazy. He wanted to touch me but he couldn’t, he wanted to increase the pace but couldn’t, he wanted to fuck me but he couldn’t. This frustrated him until he exploded, his cum shot up my pussy, I lifted myself from his dick and our cum cocktail dripped on his lap. I licked it off He groaned

He was panting like a dog, I leaned on his ear and whispered “good boy, now I’m going to un-tie you, I want you to fuck me like a whore” I bent over before him and untied his ankles, then his hands... it was like freeing a wild animal that has been caged for years, he stretched his long lean body then he grabbed me by the arm, led me into the bedroom and threw me on the bed, he leaned on me and kissed me passionately while sticking his fingers in my hot cum filled wet pussy, he grabbed both my ankles into the air and went down on my pussy, licking and nibbling my clit, I screamed with pleasure. His dick was now rock hard, he rolled my ass over positioning me in doggy style, I hissed “give it to me baby, I want you inside me right now”, He rubbed his cock on my clit from behind, finally he couldn’t hold back any longer, he shoved his cock in my soaking wet pussy with vengeance, I couldn’t help but scream! “Oh fuck baby”, he shoved his cock harder this time, spanking me like a whore, I loved it. He pounded me harder and harder each time that I came so hard on his cock, he groaned with pleasure of my hot creamy fluids on his cock, this encouraged him to fuck like a maniac, thrustingdeep into me with a pace so fast and a force so strong that his grip around my waist tightened extensively, his finger were digging deep into my skin, in agony I cried tears of pain and pleasure. It felt like I had one leg in heaven and one leg in hell. He yelled “that’s it baby, I’m cumming! I’m cumming! that’s it !... fuck yeah I’m cumming Oh “, he exploded inside me , both our fluids released at the same time. He collapsed on top of me and squeezed my back. He rolled me over and wiped tears in my eyes kissed me all over my face and said “thank you my baby, you are amazing, I love you so much”

PROJECT BDSM - first timer (part 2)

The day

Finally ‘the day’ arrived, the much anticipated day, Sunday, bright beautiful blue sky, the sun cracking through the deep blue sea’s of Durban. 

View from his apartment

Yes I spent a night at his apartment in Durban North. Even though he wasn't there I just wanted to feel close to him, smell him, to almost taste him and almost touch him. The whole apartment smelt of his perfume, his jeans and other clothes hung from hangers and from the back of chair smelt of him.  The night before I had opened a bottle of wine, watched some movies and slumbered on his bed immersed in his scent, I missed him so so dearly.

That morning I took a quick shower and made myself some breakfast before rushing off to my flat to prepare for the night. I got to my house around 10:30am. Marinated some meat and prepared some dessert for dinner later. I was finished when I received a call from one of my friends who’s in town, she invited me for Picnic and a swim in Brighton Beach, I thought why not, I probably need some cleansing before I commit a sin right?? But I had to be back in the house by at least 15: 00. So off we went, it was a beautiful beach day well spent with friends.

He arrived at my flat around 17:30, this time I was already buzzed from the glass of wine I had just half an hour ago, He had text-ed me on his way over, it felt like a lifetime ago because from that time until now I have had a heated debate in my head whether or not to go ahead with the idea. He opened the door and he knew already something was up with me because I couldn't look him in the eye; he brought me a box of chocolates and two bottles of wine, red and white. I thanked him; he swept me into his arms and gave me a perk on the cheek. I almost exploded with desire. Goddamn I love this man but all I could think about right now is to torture him and fuck him to death. Since when did I become a sadist? Heaven I need to be rescued from myself very badly

He waited as long as he dared to ask what’s going on. Silence.  He asked me what I got up to in the weekend. Silence. His eyes casually fell into the chair in the middle of the lounge. His attention, though, suddenly returned to me. He gave me a questioning look and frowned, as quick as lightning I got on my feet and waltzed into the kitchen to get on with dinner, he followed me. I could swear he’s already put two and two together, he’s a smart guy I’m sure he’s already figured it out. Oh my God, my heart was pounding in my chest, suddenly I was thinking of backing down because fear was winning me over, I took a sip of wine then I felt two big hands holding me from behind, pressing me against the kitchen counter, he planted a slight kiss on the back of my neck, I moaned. I closed my eyes and felt his dick poking me, he is horny, good. Suddenly I felt like I’m in control once again. I regained my composure, pushed him away and told him sternly that I’m going to run him a hot bubbly bath. I left the room and he followed me, he asked if I’m going to join him I said no, he seemed very confused with my behavior, I hissed under my breath  “I’m just following the rules baby, I’m just following the rules”. I went to the kitchen and prepared dinner while he bathed.

When he finished bathing, dinner was laid out for him on the table, we ate in silence. The only sound in the room was fork and knife clicking against the plates; I could almost hear cricket sounds. I could almost sense his frustrations from across the table. He couldn't take his eyes off me, watching my each and every move, probably thinking 'what the fuck is wrong with you today?' it was fuckin awkward. He poured some more wine for us and purposely brushed his hand against mine, I quickly retrached my hand and thought to myself “no fuckin touching busta”, we finished eating and I cleared the plates and straightened the table, it was the most awkward dinner we've ever had. We often have awkward dinners when we are mad at each other but this one definitely take the cake, the sexual tension was so intense. We sat on the couch and watched TV. He didn't even know whether to touch me or not because he couldn't figure out what was going through my mind. Finally he broke the ice by commenting about what was playing on TV and I cracked with laughter, he saw this as an opportunity to come closer to me and hold me into his arms. My body was rigid but I finally gave in, I just melted on his arms, we kissed passionately, he carefully took my glass and placed it on the coffee table, we kissed for like another  minute or two, I started undressing him, he obliged, he tried to do the same but I kept his hands away, I thought fuck yeah I’m in control now. This carried on until he was completely naked but I was still fully clothed. He tried his best to undress me but with no luck. He just sat there on my couch with his dick hard, confused and horny as fuck. I then got up and stood in front of him; he asked me what’s up, I put on a serious face and told him we’re about to play a very special game. it sounded more like an instruction .I made it clear that he doesn't have a say from now on. He said Okay, slowly I started stripping my clothes off one by one until I was completely naked, he watched in anticipation and hunger in his eyes, he was about to burst out in flames with desire. ........I smiled,.it was fun watching him in that state, horny and confused, the image will probably stay in my mind for as long as we are together, fuckin priceless,

To be continued.....

Stay tuned for part three.