PROJECT BDSM - first timer (part 1)

Lately BDSM is all I have been thinking about , I even mentioned this to my twitter followers the other day, its safe to say I'm obsessed with the idea, the more I read about it, the more I want to do it. Today is Friday 29 March 2013, I woke up around 4am and decided to do more research on the subject. My boyfriend is away, I saw him briefly yesterday before he left, he tried to have a quickie sex but I refused. He seemed very confused because I never say no to sex, EVER! What he doesn't realize is, the next time we have sex he's in for the best ride of his life, its gonna bring a whole new dimension to our sex life, which for the record is already explosive but what I have in mind is gonna literally blow him away. LOL

My boyfriend and I have been together for almost 2 years and sex is great. he has always given me the freedom to explore my fantasies by pushing boundaries little by little and which by the way is the greatest gift your partner could ever give to you. I've become more sexual and I love it. what I didn't realize all along is we have been actually practising "soft" BDSM. Sometimes he would let me take control and I would tell him what to do, or if I want something just as often I initiate sex I would fuck him so hard while telling him what I want until he promises to give it to me, so basically I've been using sex to get what I want, (sounds dirty doesn't it?) *chuckle* I think its our dirty little game we like to play and it turns both of us ON.

So, my "Sub" or rather "my slave boy" is coming back on Sunday, (Sub in short for Submissive) its a pity I don't have enough time to get all my toys together, Like proper handcuffs, whip, nipple clamps, duct tape, etc. However I have been looking around the house for some things I could use for my project, there's plenty of options, I found some old thin  soft leather belts for whipping, blind folds for when I had trouble sleeping, scarves for cuffing, straps for tying to the chair, a wooden spatula for slight spanking, wooden pegs for nipple clamping, some vodka, weed, body chocolate and whipped cream can, the whole shebang. *rubs hands together* I cant wait, I 'm already having the scenarios played out in my head. Did I mention I bought a little outfit for the occasion, Lol
I have already started teasing him, you know to prepare him mentally, I think it's the most important thing to do, as foodies would say I'm giving him a "palate cleanser" which is defined as "sense of taste, intellectual or aesthetic taste" it simply means mental appreciation or mental stimulation.
First this morning I sent him a formal dinner invitation, candlelit and wine and shit, he's probably wondering whats going on but he accepted. secondly I sent him this photo

quality is terrible, but you get the idea neh :-) LOL

He is chuffed, see he already knows whats gonna happen but he doesn't realize the severity of it. perfect!

I will post part two after Sunday, to let you guys know how it went
Happy Fucking !!

 

A little note

I know most people imagine me to be this badass bitch that sleeps with around

Fact is I love sex,  and I love writing about my sexual experiences. I’m not a professional writer but I love writing and reading books a lot, This blog has become a place where I could shout from the rooftops that I’m having the best sex of my life, with no implications. I’m now more attentive and rousing during sex so when I start writing something I relive those moments, it fuels my writing and I can’t wait to have sex and write the next one. I am not ashamed about having and enjoying sex.

Last Saturday

This is a diary entry....

I had an exciting weekend with my boo, Durban weather was pretty sexy, slightly cold and drizzly, perfect for staying in and fuck the whole day. My boo wanted to come over Friday night, I had to say NO, I had tons of work to get through before Monday and I knew if he came over I wouldn't be able to get any work done. I told him to go spend time with the boys. So we agreed to see each other on Saturday, he was grumpy about it but I had to put my foot down. So I worked through the night and the rest of the morning, by 10am I was so exhausted I took a 3 hr nap. I woke up refreshed and energized. I text-ed him asking where he is, he text ed back saying he will pick me up at 14H00 so we can go watch the game together, yes the Soweto Derby. So I took a long bath and poured myself a glass of wine to help me relax. I dressed up and waited for him, 15mins later we were driving to a local pub to watch the game,  It was so exciting, more so because we support the same team. Alcohol was flowing and everyone was enjoying the game, we had a pretty good time.

By 18:30 we left the pub and headed to Durban North, on the way we got something to eat and a few bottles of wine, that time I was heavily buzzed. We got to his apartment and had our dinner, finished and put on a movie and  I rested my head on his lap, I was so bored, all I wanted was to fuck. Halfway through the movie, I started teasing him by spreading my legs wide and carefully took his hand and I put his finger in my pussy, I closed my eyes and moaned softly, I was wearing a dress so my thighs were in full view, he watched my each and every move, his dick grew bigger and bigger and bigger I knew he wanted me right there and then , Our eyes met, his eyes blazing with desire. He was enjoying it, I stopped what I was doing and I climbed on top of his lap kissing him right away and he quickly undressed me and unhooked my bra so to have access to my tits and hard little nipples. He grabbed and sucked my tits licking my nipples making my freshly shaved pussy drippin wet in an instant. He was feeling my waist and my hips with his rough hands. He then roughly pulled my panties to the side and quickly put his dick inside me, it was blazing hot. I held on the back of the couch and started fucking him roughly, he didn't stop caressing me and kissing me all over, suckling my nipples and giving me a little spank. He lifted me off his dick and carried me to the bedroom; he put me on the bed, ripped my panties off and spread my legs wide. That moment I wanted his dick inside my pussy so bad, my pussy was dripping wet and hot as fuck. He lay between my legs and started licking my shaved wet pussy, licking and sucking my clit making me moan loudly, as I moaned he pushed his fingers into my pussy and fucked my pussy hard with them while licking my clit making me shiver up in pleasure pushing my pussy into his mouth as I screamed and scratched his arms and back with my nails. I came hard against his mouth and was hardly able to catch my breath and letting out screams. 

As soon as he had finished and I caught my breath and regained my ability to move, all I could think about was returning the favor  He lay back next to me kissing me so I could taste my pussy in his mouth. I crawled down his body and grabbed his dick, rock hard ready for me. I allowed a little spit to cover it to make it nice and wet for me to slip down my throat and licked every inch of his hard cock teasing him and then swallowed his whole cock down to his balls and started sucking his cock hard, wrapping my lips around his cock tightly and sucking up and down his whole length jerking my head up and down on his cock, then licking the head quickly flicking my tongue over it, licking up every drop of pre-cum so I could taste him. He pulled me up at this point knowing he was near to cumming but wanting to do so in my pussy. 
He pushed me down on the bed and climbed on top of me roughly pulled my legs apart and on to his shoulders as he pushed his cock inside my pussy , he pumped his cock into my thick pussy watching my face in pleasure as I thrust back into him. After a few thrusts he had opened my pussy up and he fucked me hard and fast as I grabbed on his back moaning knowing I would cum straight away. He spread my legs wide in the air and pounded my pussy hard as I came screaming his name. As soon as I had cum he flipped me over so I was on all fours and fucked me with my ass in the air and my head down he was soon moaning at the view of my ass and pussy and came hard into my pussy. After that we fell asleep in each other’s arms.


After a few hours of sleep we woke up, I was sleeping in just his t-shirt with no underwear and he was naked still. After a long morning kiss, I worked my way down to his cock, it was pretty hard already. I licked and sucked his balls putting them into my mouth while stroking his cock with my tongue his cock hardened till it was rock hard I licked it up and down teasing him flicking my tongue over the head slowly then quickly then slowly again. I then wrapped my lips around his cock tightly and started sucking it up and down jerking my head up and down , He grabbed my one hand and put it on my clit growling at me to play with myself as I sucked him. I did as he said and played with my wet clit as I sucked his long cock feeling it hit the back of my throat he growled he was going to cum, I held his cock with my hand and directed his cock at my open mouth and he shot his cum into my mouth as I licked the head of his cock licking every drop of cum up and swallowing it all. 
I then collapsed beside him and he was still shaking with pleasure, he held me so tight nearly crushing me. He kissed me and we fell asleep again. We woke up around 10am, took a quick shower and went out for breakfast.

get to know me better

I love cooking, I cook for myself and my boyfriend. He loves my cooking, he cant go a day without. Sometimes I invite friends over for a dinner party, we have good times. below is my conservative little flat where I share memories with people I love.

  

This is my small conservative flat. its nothing much but I enjoy spending time alone here.

I like TV 

When I'm bored, I play my son's PlayStation

I absolutely love reading, Its one of my fav things in the world

one of many diners

I eat healthy whenever I can

my special beef curry my bf loves so much

I stock Booze :-) whenever I can

I eat health, well Sometimes

I love hosting the ladies, I love cooking , preparing cocktails and sharing a fine bottle of wine with friends, this is one of many dinner parties I have hosted in my house. from left - Busi, Myself, Thembelihle and Lungi. 

aftermath 

Lee & Myself - Manchester United game in Moses Mabhida stadium  Durban (2012)

at work 

my big forehead, LOL

Friends Forever

I have a hard time with friendships. To be honest it's not the friendships that scare me it's the letting people into my life that freaks me out. I’m a very private person; I like to keep my personal struggles to myself. I've always been a shy girl; I’m not a good talker. You can say I’m a loner, I like my own space, I like being on my own with my own thoughts. I know it sounds creepy. The friends I keep close to my heart are ones that have gone through the hardships with me, the ones I don't have to talk to everyday or every week...even monthly for that matter. But when we do talk it's like no time has passed. The friendship I have with Busi is a very special one, which was thankfully formed through Facebook. She's the friend that you know no matter what she'll be there for you in an instant. She's the one you want to tell your deepest secrets or your embarrassing moments just so she'll make fun of you. ....but it's that kind of friendship that only the two of us can understand.

Busi

Me and Busi